Sister I am so with you on this one! The anger started as soon as I realized my last embryo transfer failed. I miscarried the next day, day of the Eclipse, and it was both physically and emotionally intense! That anger has pushed me to face that I no longer want to allow the limitations of infertility, repeated loss and defeat to beat me down. I’m in a new space of love and renewal, and it’s wonderful. I’ve made peace with myself and see myself now as spiritually pregnant, longing for a child that is just not coming through was a pretty miserable experience. I am letting go, and feeling pretty strong. I am determined to heal, and have a happy life no matter what happens.
omg! SO MANY chills, Sylvia! THIS is truly amazing. You had to get to this space and you DID IT. I read a line yesterday that made me laugh: “Sometimes BIG GIFTS come wrapped in shitty, little packages.” This is definitely true for you. That Eclipse was a big eraser ~ erasing the limitations of the path. It’s no coincidence you experienced this on that day. This miscarriage was not a loss at all, but a BIRTHING of your NEW limitless self! SO proud of you, Sister! You are a TRUE WARRIOR! This new space you’re in with birth many, many new and wonderful things.
sylvia
Sep 07, 2017 @ 03:02:05
Sister I am so with you on this one! The anger started as soon as I realized my last embryo transfer failed. I miscarried the next day, day of the Eclipse, and it was both physically and emotionally intense! That anger has pushed me to face that I no longer want to allow the limitations of infertility, repeated loss and defeat to beat me down. I’m in a new space of love and renewal, and it’s wonderful. I’ve made peace with myself and see myself now as spiritually pregnant, longing for a child that is just not coming through was a pretty miserable experience. I am letting go, and feeling pretty strong. I am determined to heal, and have a happy life no matter what happens.
Kate Street
Sep 07, 2017 @ 08:31:51
omg! SO MANY chills, Sylvia! THIS is truly amazing. You had to get to this space and you DID IT. I read a line yesterday that made me laugh: “Sometimes BIG GIFTS come wrapped in shitty, little packages.” This is definitely true for you. That Eclipse was a big eraser ~ erasing the limitations of the path. It’s no coincidence you experienced this on that day. This miscarriage was not a loss at all, but a BIRTHING of your NEW limitless self! SO proud of you, Sister! You are a TRUE WARRIOR! This new space you’re in with birth many, many new and wonderful things.