Identify 100% and I have been even angry at my spirit babies,divine,higher self etc,blah blah. Mimicking menopause periods symptoms at times,I think ugh screaming I’m fucking done with this Earthly human shit. Never again… in my bipolar times I scream what the hell is this all for we should be done by now. I am done with it all. I’ve practiced positive thinking,law of attraction blah blah and still nothing. When you mentioned our spirit babies coming this year I got chills,but because I’m manic I can’t even feel excited nor trust anything for myself but only for others. My ass is getting kicked and tossed. Done venting here:) Sending much love to all other forerunners. Thanks for this~xo
I hear you, Sister! LOUD and CLEAR! And just so you know, it’s NOT just you feeling the symptoms mimicking menopause at this time~ just the demons of the ttc forerunners kicking about seeing if you’ll believe the limitations or not. BIG tests of mastery JUST when we thought we were getting somewhere!
Your vent sounds very similar to mine as of late!
We’ll make it through, Sister. I REALLY highly recommend the book “Outrageous Openness” that I talked about. I *knew* all this stuff years ago but it’s only now, on the other side of the dark night of the soul, that we REALLY can understand and more importantly implement it. Really. Get it.
Oh my goodness,your message is astounding to me because I am going through a miscarriage right now! I found out on 12/26 I was pregnant and began miscarrying Jan 1. I know it is real as the pregnancy test is now negative. Thanks in part to your daily spirit baby e-mails, I know that for whatever reason this is not the right time and it is a comfort that my baby’s color (bright lemon yellow) is everywhere today! Thank you for this message, I will surrender to the Divine. I’ve done nothing wrong. In fact, I am celebrating that I conceived naturally at 45 🙂
THANK YOU.
omg, Sister, what an incredibly inspiring post this is ~ to be celebrating, seeing signs, and having the ability to be comforted WHILE experiencing a miscarriage is truly, truly AMAZING and a true testament to your very high vibration.
Good for you for NOT letting your age get in your way. You are limitless, Sister. And all those signs are a promise from your baby that she/he will be back.
Thank you for sharing your LIGHT during this challenging time.
SO much love to you!
Thank you!! I’ve been feeling like I can’t go any further and like I’m so done. Absolutely committed to nurturing myself – my new year’s promise. Dragged myself out of bed yesterday and made myself go to a qi gong/yoga/meditation class which had the most supportive energy. I realized I could keep going after all, but it’s still a massive struggle. So helpful to know it’s not just me!! And, I LOVE Tosha Silver. Thank you for the reminder. xoxo
Omg Kate. It’s eerie how right on point your blogs posts are to what I’m going through. Having a crises of faith is an understatement. As the years have gone on, I’ve had just an overwhelming sadness that this is taking so long and I’m getting older. But I’ve also been wondering how the hell im going to get through life if I don’t ever have a baby. Like I’m gonna die of a broken heart. Thank u so much for mentioning Tosha. Right away I grabbed her books and watched her on u tube and I’m just in awe of her. I have been given the message that I need to totally surrender but how the hell do I do that? It’s a child we are talking about, not a job or a house! What? How do I just be ok with letting the attachment go? I’ve been attached to the idea this baby like nooooothing else! It’s so painful to even “consider” letting it go never mind fully. But I am going to follow her book and teachings to surrender to the divine. It’s the only thing I haven’t tried. I’m also going to pray that if a baby is not meant for me, make me ok with that! Because I’m nooooot ok with it right now. Seriously I feel like I could die if I don’t ever have a baby. So I’m going to do her prayers asking for that feeling to go away. I love her work. Thank u so much for mentioning her!
Dearest Sister, You are RIGHT on the cusp of the ultimate divine surrender! BELIEVE me, I know!! I’m going to be doing a new video for advanced initiates such as you (and all the women who’ve commented on this post) very soon ~ something like The Divine Mother Activation. It will help carry you over this hump. Keep on the lookout.
Oh the rage, yes I have been feeling it too. The whole month of December crazy angry about everything. It was confronting because initially I questioned where is this coming from, its like it came up out of me from nowhere. I chose to experience the rage fully, to dance with it, to surf with it, to allow it to express itself in my body when and however it wanted. For the past 5 years when I have been upgrading the divine timing of the universe made it so that my husband would always be away. This time however not only is he not away he suffered a work place injury and has been on the couch for 9 weeks. Upgrading while my husband needs me constantly has been incredibly challenging and shone light on areas of our marriage that were due for an upgrade. Our spirit baby always around during this upgrade – strange times indeed !!
So wise in your words, Sister ~ to dance and surf with the rage! Put so beautifully. I do believe we are coming out the other side of this incredibly challenging passage.
Much LOVE to you!
Kate, The rage is not over, it’s still simmering beneath the surface. I know I need to surrender, and that I owe it to myself to let go but knowing isn’t getting it done. I’ve been focused for so many years on helping others as a way to be good enough to deserve a baby, while doing everything possible to conceive a child and nothing has worked. I’m so done. I decided I was desperate enough to try something new. I stopped praying for a baby and started praying for a happy family – meaning my husband and I and everyone close to us, together and happy as if that baby we are missing wasn’t missing. For the first time in years, I’ve experienced a Christmas/NY/Birthday (I just turned 47) period where I am NOT pregnant, and am feeling happy. For whatever reason, my body loves being pregnant around this time of year, and I am always pregnant and miscarrying around my birthday in January. I’m still angry he’s not here. I still miss our babies. But, through the chaos of my feelings being messed with by divine timing, I learned to somehow slow down and enjoy the closeness of the family I have. I hope this is a sign…. Thank you so much Kate!
Akasha
Jan 02, 2018 @ 22:38:11
Identify 100% and I have been even angry at my spirit babies,divine,higher self etc,blah blah. Mimicking menopause periods symptoms at times,I think ugh screaming I’m fucking done with this Earthly human shit. Never again… in my bipolar times I scream what the hell is this all for we should be done by now. I am done with it all. I’ve practiced positive thinking,law of attraction blah blah and still nothing. When you mentioned our spirit babies coming this year I got chills,but because I’m manic I can’t even feel excited nor trust anything for myself but only for others. My ass is getting kicked and tossed. Done venting here:) Sending much love to all other forerunners. Thanks for this~xo
Kate Street
Jan 03, 2018 @ 15:40:20
I hear you, Sister! LOUD and CLEAR! And just so you know, it’s NOT just you feeling the symptoms mimicking menopause at this time~ just the demons of the ttc forerunners kicking about seeing if you’ll believe the limitations or not. BIG tests of mastery JUST when we thought we were getting somewhere!
Your vent sounds very similar to mine as of late!
We’ll make it through, Sister. I REALLY highly recommend the book “Outrageous Openness” that I talked about. I *knew* all this stuff years ago but it’s only now, on the other side of the dark night of the soul, that we REALLY can understand and more importantly implement it. Really. Get it.
LOVE YOU SO MUCH!
Jessica
Jan 04, 2018 @ 15:04:32
Oh my goodness,your message is astounding to me because I am going through a miscarriage right now! I found out on 12/26 I was pregnant and began miscarrying Jan 1. I know it is real as the pregnancy test is now negative. Thanks in part to your daily spirit baby e-mails, I know that for whatever reason this is not the right time and it is a comfort that my baby’s color (bright lemon yellow) is everywhere today! Thank you for this message, I will surrender to the Divine. I’ve done nothing wrong. In fact, I am celebrating that I conceived naturally at 45 🙂
THANK YOU.
Kate Street
Jan 04, 2018 @ 16:06:41
omg, Sister, what an incredibly inspiring post this is ~ to be celebrating, seeing signs, and having the ability to be comforted WHILE experiencing a miscarriage is truly, truly AMAZING and a true testament to your very high vibration.
Good for you for NOT letting your age get in your way. You are limitless, Sister. And all those signs are a promise from your baby that she/he will be back.
Thank you for sharing your LIGHT during this challenging time.
SO much love to you!
Jeannine
Jan 04, 2018 @ 16:30:07
Thank you!! I’ve been feeling like I can’t go any further and like I’m so done. Absolutely committed to nurturing myself – my new year’s promise. Dragged myself out of bed yesterday and made myself go to a qi gong/yoga/meditation class which had the most supportive energy. I realized I could keep going after all, but it’s still a massive struggle. So helpful to know it’s not just me!! And, I LOVE Tosha Silver. Thank you for the reminder. xoxo
Kate Street
Jan 09, 2018 @ 14:45:10
omg, yes, Jeannine. I get it! See my post to Chantel below, it applies to you too!
Chantel Chavez
Jan 05, 2018 @ 15:58:36
Omg Kate. It’s eerie how right on point your blogs posts are to what I’m going through. Having a crises of faith is an understatement. As the years have gone on, I’ve had just an overwhelming sadness that this is taking so long and I’m getting older. But I’ve also been wondering how the hell im going to get through life if I don’t ever have a baby. Like I’m gonna die of a broken heart. Thank u so much for mentioning Tosha. Right away I grabbed her books and watched her on u tube and I’m just in awe of her. I have been given the message that I need to totally surrender but how the hell do I do that? It’s a child we are talking about, not a job or a house! What? How do I just be ok with letting the attachment go? I’ve been attached to the idea this baby like nooooothing else! It’s so painful to even “consider” letting it go never mind fully. But I am going to follow her book and teachings to surrender to the divine. It’s the only thing I haven’t tried. I’m also going to pray that if a baby is not meant for me, make me ok with that! Because I’m nooooot ok with it right now. Seriously I feel like I could die if I don’t ever have a baby. So I’m going to do her prayers asking for that feeling to go away. I love her work. Thank u so much for mentioning her!
Kate Street
Jan 09, 2018 @ 14:44:27
Dearest Sister, You are RIGHT on the cusp of the ultimate divine surrender! BELIEVE me, I know!! I’m going to be doing a new video for advanced initiates such as you (and all the women who’ve commented on this post) very soon ~ something like The Divine Mother Activation. It will help carry you over this hump. Keep on the lookout.
Belle Tozer
Jan 08, 2018 @ 20:25:24
Oh the rage, yes I have been feeling it too. The whole month of December crazy angry about everything. It was confronting because initially I questioned where is this coming from, its like it came up out of me from nowhere. I chose to experience the rage fully, to dance with it, to surf with it, to allow it to express itself in my body when and however it wanted. For the past 5 years when I have been upgrading the divine timing of the universe made it so that my husband would always be away. This time however not only is he not away he suffered a work place injury and has been on the couch for 9 weeks. Upgrading while my husband needs me constantly has been incredibly challenging and shone light on areas of our marriage that were due for an upgrade. Our spirit baby always around during this upgrade – strange times indeed !!
Kate Street
Jan 09, 2018 @ 14:42:24
So wise in your words, Sister ~ to dance and surf with the rage! Put so beautifully. I do believe we are coming out the other side of this incredibly challenging passage.
Much LOVE to you!
sylvia
Jan 23, 2018 @ 14:37:59
Kate, The rage is not over, it’s still simmering beneath the surface. I know I need to surrender, and that I owe it to myself to let go but knowing isn’t getting it done. I’ve been focused for so many years on helping others as a way to be good enough to deserve a baby, while doing everything possible to conceive a child and nothing has worked. I’m so done. I decided I was desperate enough to try something new. I stopped praying for a baby and started praying for a happy family – meaning my husband and I and everyone close to us, together and happy as if that baby we are missing wasn’t missing. For the first time in years, I’ve experienced a Christmas/NY/Birthday (I just turned 47) period where I am NOT pregnant, and am feeling happy. For whatever reason, my body loves being pregnant around this time of year, and I am always pregnant and miscarrying around my birthday in January. I’m still angry he’s not here. I still miss our babies. But, through the chaos of my feelings being messed with by divine timing, I learned to somehow slow down and enjoy the closeness of the family I have. I hope this is a sign…. Thank you so much Kate!