That was great, thank u for your messages. I think I’ve done everything BUT relax on this arduous 4.5 year ttc journey. About to turn 45 and still ttc my first and some days I think I can do this and it’s all ok and other days I’m so angry that the rest of the world gets to plan their families as they want. I just feel so angry, I didn’t choose to be an old mom! Ugh. I know we agreed to our contracts but I just don’t understand and maybe I never will , why I’m supposed to go through this hell. I just don’t see any good in it. In fact I’m more tired, older and more cynical than I’ve ever been. How’s that good for a baby ? I’m sorry I’ve rambling , I just have no one to vent to that would get it. The only thing I’ve ever wanted is to be a mother , nothing else, nothing, and it’s the one thing that eludes me. Can’t think of anything worse than that. Anyway I’m done , gonna relax now and I’ll just know it’s all in divine timing …..love your work, it does help during the dark days, which seem to be more frequent as this journey continues!
Chantel,I hear ya’. Some days I can’t stand another day of this shit. I like you, have been on this journey far too LONG. I can’t wait to finish this!!! I feel you because this too is my biggest dream/wish….becoming a mom. May you find peace and comfort.
Agreed Chantel and Akasha ~ waaaay toooo long! I know you’ve both been on the road for awhile. If it’s any comfort this year 2016 is a 9 year (in numerology) which means COMPLETION. Next year is a 1 year, meaning new beginnings. I have a strong feeling we’ll be anchoring some serious major shit these next few months (in a newer, expanded way) and be set to FLY into the new year. At this point in the journey, what’s another couple of months, right? We GOT this, Sisters. We got this.
Kate! I just found this message, after surely overlooking it many times. ~ celebrating the disconnection ~ nourishment ~ relaxation and energy conservation ~ yes, yes, yes!
Chantel
May 31, 2016 @ 17:33:05
That was great, thank u for your messages. I think I’ve done everything BUT relax on this arduous 4.5 year ttc journey. About to turn 45 and still ttc my first and some days I think I can do this and it’s all ok and other days I’m so angry that the rest of the world gets to plan their families as they want. I just feel so angry, I didn’t choose to be an old mom! Ugh. I know we agreed to our contracts but I just don’t understand and maybe I never will , why I’m supposed to go through this hell. I just don’t see any good in it. In fact I’m more tired, older and more cynical than I’ve ever been. How’s that good for a baby ? I’m sorry I’ve rambling , I just have no one to vent to that would get it. The only thing I’ve ever wanted is to be a mother , nothing else, nothing, and it’s the one thing that eludes me. Can’t think of anything worse than that. Anyway I’m done , gonna relax now and I’ll just know it’s all in divine timing …..love your work, it does help during the dark days, which seem to be more frequent as this journey continues!
Akasha
May 31, 2016 @ 19:57:31
Chantel,I hear ya’. Some days I can’t stand another day of this shit. I like you, have been on this journey far too LONG. I can’t wait to finish this!!! I feel you because this too is my biggest dream/wish….becoming a mom. May you find peace and comfort.
Kate Street
May 31, 2016 @ 20:09:17
Agreed Chantel and Akasha ~ waaaay toooo long! I know you’ve both been on the road for awhile. If it’s any comfort this year 2016 is a 9 year (in numerology) which means COMPLETION. Next year is a 1 year, meaning new beginnings. I have a strong feeling we’ll be anchoring some serious major shit these next few months (in a newer, expanded way) and be set to FLY into the new year. At this point in the journey, what’s another couple of months, right? We GOT this, Sisters. We got this.
ginger
Apr 21, 2017 @ 14:10:06
Kate! I just found this message, after surely overlooking it many times. ~ celebrating the disconnection ~ nourishment ~ relaxation and energy conservation ~ yes, yes, yes!